it’s something I’ve never had
the kind that makes the bed
while I’m in the shower
he’s brought me breakfast in bed
an act of love I have never experienced
I could go on and on with moments
times when I have to blink extra hard
just to make sure its real
suddenly it is easy for me to see
there is room for me here
there is room for a us both.
I am not made to feel shame
I am safe to feel
safe to express myself
safe to love
I can be matched in empathy
matched in compassion
I do not need to be caretaker
and never caregiven
I can be both
he has changed the way I see it
adjusted the way I think
I am learning to trust
I am learning to lean into comfort
rather than fear
it is starting to feel like home
I am finding it here